I don't want to love. I don't want to be loved. In my understanding of the world, this feeling has no specific characteristics, parameters, states or expression. And it is absolutely devoid of a temporal, as well as a vector directed towards itself. © First for you, better for us, lastly for me, to be able to give/do for us!
I have said many times, and I am fully convinced of it: "two can do absolutely anything". And, probably, if you are single now, you are not enough of the necessary potential, accumulated power, knowledge, skills, connections and so on, for the person who will give his/her own for you two. Relationships are synergy, and no other way! If there are two of you, then the result of you and your relationship should be something clearly greater than "two". A relationship is a waterfall that never ends, giving water to the earth.