I guess that's the boiling point. May... a month when you have to be busy, and not even from idleness, as these two words are usually used side by side. No. Full of tasks, open questions and opportunities for the realization of desires and own ambition.
In reality, there are no problems that a dialogue or a rethinking of behavior would not solve. A careful look at the values in the simple... absolutely everything is solvable, because it's 2022.
Why do I feel like crying? Why is this weight on your soul impossible to move even an inch aside to breathe more deeply? And what is its source, the reason for its appearance... a question to which you do not find an answer, burrowing more and more into the swamp of more and more questions to yourself.
It's spring. Life, society and yourself are being transformed. A year has passed, during which you have learned, experienced, understood and felt a lot. Now you are turning into a butterfly, getting out of the cocoon. Your cargo is the walls of the cocoon, which is already broken. Very soon you will be able to spread your wings.
And let the tears be only from happiness and laughter... People are very funny in this funny life, with its vagaries and conditions. We really need to learn to see the possibilities in small things, to be content with small things and to get high on the things we love, giving ourselves a smile.