Жизнь: предсказуемость и удивление

My life is strange, however... Sometimes it leads to sarcastic laughter, but... why is it like this? I could always predict events and the inevitability of certain outcomes, but now... I'm starting to be afraid of wanting anything, because an ill-considered wish is fulfilled intuitively faster than a thoroughly thought-out "wish". And, apparently, this is the mystery of the ellipses in my head... all you have to do is want it! Have you seen how sweetly a cat sleeps? The perfectly comfortable place that it finds for itself in any conditions gives it a guaranteed opportunity:

a) fall asleep,
b) wake up.

The ability to get enough sleep in n-time intervals is a natural ability. Hmm... I'm experiencing something similar now. I should probably envy myself... only something that stubbornly presses on my ambition and a few bars are missing in the "Jenga pyramid" is in the way.

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