Lost steam and new beginnings

Starting something new... From the very beginning you light up and don't notice any physical or moral fatigue. Flight after flight, tray after tray... everything is perfect, smooth, with the utmost pedantry. But first one thing, then another... you are asked, then demanded to meet unreasonable or unachievable targets. Maintaining that order of things with the same pedantry becomes morally costly. From constant pressure you give up on undertakings, taking a pause and continuing to move through the ranks.

And now, after several years, you see what was made by your hands... there is no longer any of your enthusiasm left in it. It is extremely rare, but it is very pleasant to watch how it has become noticeably better. It is a little offensive and envious, but... I guess I am an owner, although I have never thought so before.

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